but this winter break sure has been a winter wondland. even if it isn’t white.

There are so many things I never took advantage of in high school. So many people I overlooked, ruled out, or just straight up denied. I’m not going to say I regret being the person I was in high school. I don’t. Everything happens for a reason. Frankly if I wasn’t who I used to be there is no way I could have became the person I am now. I wouldn’t have gotten into the college I go to now, wouldn’t have avoided pointless drama, and wouldn’t have kept the friends I did. You can’t have everything in life. That’s something I’m fully aware of. But it’s never too late to experience what you always wanted to, or maybe stuff you never knew you were missing out on.

There are so many things I didn’t know I was missing out on. So many.

But that’s why this break has been so amazing. Coming back from school I didn’t really know what to expect. Someone I knew had recently passed away, and he was a good friend of my sister’s. She was crushed. I was crushed for her. We all were. I didn’t know what it would be like, coming back after missing everything being at school.

I shouldn’t have wasted so much time worrying. I realized immediately upon walking into the door that there was no need to. I have so much respect for the way someone who is younger than me can handle themselves with so much courage. It amazes me every single day.

Community. It’s something I never quite experienced like i did this past month. People are truly amazing. And I for one am guilty of grossly underestimating them. But no more. This past month I worked where I do every break, but this time, that wasn’t the source of my excitement. I saw my cousin who lives far away, was dragged to the mall to finally get my ears pierced, and I didn’t faint. Then we took an off roading adventure in my saturn sudan. Got it stuck in a mud hole, called up some guys to pull it out. Then went off roading for real with one of them. Saw him fall into a “frozen” pond. Drove over to my other cousins house at 8pm, just sat there talking til midnight. Went on a new years adventure with my sister, stuffed nine people in my saturn. Chilled by a bonfire, set off fireworks, and played sober monitor. Took some trips out to a special pond. Sometimes just looking out at the water answers more questions then having a face to face conversation with the people you’re there with. Sometimes it’s the little things that you look forward to the most.

So here’s to just a few more days of awesomeness, and memories that never die.